Curiosity

Everybody is always curious. How do i live my life? Who's my friends when i was in sekolah rendah and sekolah menengah? Well to tell you the truth, i'm just plain simple. But not that simple as you think.

Well to start of, I have been introduced to the world on the 22nd of march approximately on the afternoon if i'm not mistaken. Yes, i sedar when i dikeluarkan dari rahim ibuku (whatever!!!).. Anyway, at the age of 3 years old, I've been sent to kindergarten until i was 6 years old. So yea, i spent 3 years in kindergarten. And the schools name was Tunasari, and it exists until now. I do still remember that i was so lazy to go to kindergarten that time and my mom would usually force me to wake up. Hahaha!!! My friends in kindergarten was a bit of a so so. As usual, i went to kindergarten with my cousin. So yea, she's my friend back then. We do had other friends but not as close as us. Yes i know, COUSINS!!! So anyway, when we were about to finish kindergarten, we were given this borang to our parents to state where are we going to school at during our primary year. All of my friends in kindergarten followed my cousin to St. Francis. But i went to S.R.K. ST. AGNES. Yup, there i was, excited to be in primary one. Oe what ever!! Anyway, when i was in primary one, My best friends name was Nurain Nasir. She sat beside me. But the thing is, when i was in primary one, i always cried, i needed my mommy~ yep, the same thing goes to my other cousin that is schooling at the same place as i am. heheheh..Anyway, yea..Oe yea, back to my best friend during that time. I think that she is pissed off at me until now because i did not attended to her birthday party together with our friends who are in the same class. She went to my birthday party, but i did not went to hers, Because i got something going on at that time. So most probably, yea, she's pissed off about that. Then when we were in primary two, she got more friends then me, like she wanted a revenge or something because of what happened during primary one. Seriously when i was in primary one, i was really well-known then her.

so off to primary two. Yea, she got more friends then me just because she was the grandchild of a menteri besar in Sabah at that time. So yea, everyone wanted to be friends with her. In primary two, i was close friends with my cousin again. hahaha!!! we stayed together until we were in primary three. Yep, same class since primary two. We were friends with this twin, Evelin and Evelina. God i still remember their names! Yep, she was all, very how you say, poyo, loves attention from the guys and so on. Where else me, i'm more of a tomboyish and athletic loving girl. Hahaha!! But to make me more the her, i was always top in class, and she would be around almost back of the class. But still i love her, because she's my cousin!!! And when i am in primary 3 is when i started wearing glasses. Seriously, when i wore glasses that time, everyone was like following up what i do back then. Its like i'm the trend setter that time. So yea, what the hell, i was a bit of the highlight there. Oe yea, did i tell you that i was in england during my primary two and three?? and four. Yup!! hahahaha...no lies, but all truth, this is where you will get to know my personality in the end of the story.. :)

So next, i'm in primary four. This is when i am, what do you call it, back together with my ex-best friend in primary one. But we were not as close as we were in primary one. This time, okay i mengaku, she's more front then me. People loves her, anyone will believe what she said because she's Intan Nurain. Well as me, i'm the athletic type of person, where i don't do any geddik stuff. And i am always alone during primary four and five. But yea, i don't care.So primary 5 is the same thing as when i am in primary 4. So on it goes to primary 6. Primary six this time, i am quite brutal. Oe yea, forgot to tell ya, started brutality since primary 3. When i am in Primary six, i was the top athlete in school. And well, yea, everyone knows who DK. is. Primary six is where you take your UPSR right? Yep, still remember, during primary six is where i got to know couples. He's name was kennedy Victor ongkili. Yep, no kidding. When i think back, i was like, " What the hell i was thinking back then?????!!!!!" And during my life, i was actully part of the semenanjung life, because it is considered my second home, i always go to KL every month. Yup..serious...no kidding.

So anyway, it lasted only when we were in primary six. Lama tu, mau dekat 1 tahun la jgk. So anyway, i broke up with him when i'm in secondary school. Before i entered secondary school, i was with this mike guy. He's name was Mike Jermaine Imbayan. Yup.. another one of " OMG!!!!!" But then i broke up with him. And i dump him for this guy, Harizal Lokman. Lasted for one week, then i dump him for he's brother, Helmi lokman. Yup, i know, what the fucking hell am i doing!!!. So on it goes, on what do they call it, puppy love~ hehehe..during at that time, i also coupled with this other guy named chirstopher and i dump him for Zahir. God, don't ask me how i remembered those names..haha!! Well to tell ya, i was a bit huge back when i was in form 1, but not like damn!!! your fat!!! no la, just berisi la. My best friend back then was Roseane. Yup, To tell you the truth, i was really a bad student when i'm in form 1. Doing stuff that was really, how do you call it, samseng. Kaki pukul, kaki escape, kaki melawan and all that stuff. I even almost bakar my teachers car, with a gasoline and a lighter up in my hand infront of her!!! And i did manage to bakar some, but did not bakar the whole car because the other teacher saw what is going on earlier and took the fire extinguisher first. So yea, oe and i did that after school, where all the student balik ody. Yes, from this point of view you will say that i am one of a bad ass student back then. Was almost being sent to hendrigurny , school for really bad ass students. But nah, i din get it, and i only get suspended from school for only three days. Cool huh??..So anyway, on it goes, after dibebel oleh parents ku yg bengang gyler dah, i tried to change. So i did tried step-by-step.
When i was in form two, i was really how to say, a bit quite then in form 1. Yep, Rosanne was kick out from school, because she wanted to proof to peopz that she is more bad ass then me. Idiot, at least when i'm a bad ass, my academic performance was excellent!!! Anyway, yea, back to form two. I got skinny when i'm in form two due to my ulcer in my throat. Yep, and at that time came, my other boyfriend. My bf's when i was in form 1 dah break up dah, this is the newest. So tahan for 6 month jer. I got bored over him and rimas. hahaha!!! jahat gyler, he's name was Dexter Randy. Yep, he was in form 5 and i'm in form 2. cool huh~..hahaha!! anyway, during that year in form 2 is where i don't have any bestfriends because, oe well, i don't want to. They tend to get all competition. Yuck, and as usuall, still the sports woman in all my years in High school. So yea, form 2 was a bit bowrink. Oe yea, and in form two, is where i coupled another guy before dexter, he's name is Burhanuddin (Donny)..Lasted for just urm...One month lebih, itu jak la. Then after him was dexter and after dexter was Rio. He is a form 4 student. Yup. And in form 1,2 still maintain keganasan ku. cheh!!!! So next is when i am in form three. Form three is where i got skinnier then before. I was transferred to a better class, where i was in science class number three. We have six classes all together, 3 science class and 3 commerce class. So yea, At that time, yep, still no best friends. Cause i don't trust a fucking damn thing on them. So i Really kept quite and i observe people. Seriously, i learnt alot about peoples behavior and life. I was like kononnya budak baik la time tu. Cheh padahal, tgk file aku time form 1 huh, baik sgt la konon~..tebal gyla nak mampus!! so, form three is where i started to open up my wings and be friends with a wide variety of people. And yea, that is where you get to know their COLOURS..if you know what i mean. And time tu juga i followed Hand ball. Diakatakan, paling ganas antara semua pemain, was me. Agak la, for 1 year and a half tahan tak pukul org tak bwat things yg extreme, during hand ball match is where i can hit, tendang, peluk sampai sesak nafas dier cz nak bola, hehehehe...smua la dpt dilps geram. But i slalu dpt 2 minute out la. hehehehe!! When i am in form three, i was with this guy named uzair, but it lasted only a day, after bye bye. haha!! So yea, life goes on like that until i'm in form 4.
Form four was a bit different. I took the liberty to chnage my not so myself, to a little bit of my self, because iw anted to see how people will react. Will they see me as someone interesting? fun? boring? or like when i am in form 1? But hell, who cares what people say. Still no bestfriend when i am in form 4 and also in form 5. Just close friends. So yea, form 4 is where i meet this guy, he's name is sky. Actually, i know him since i am in form three. yep. And i coupled with him at the end of form three's year. Yep. Form four, i'm a bit gangster. So i'm being friends with this group, actually my group until NOW!! Iejam, the pendek, Lisa the bikin panas, ae the slumber, ann the whatever bitch and me the don't care person. And the 5 of us, is like, if you gather us all up, you can say that, the four of us, except lisa, is the partay girls, wild girls right now. But but when we were in form 4, study, is the main thing, and also boys. hehehehe..So i coupled with sky and at the same time, i coupled with salawi and donny. But donny went back to Tawau ody so left me, salawi and sky. But at the end of it, no on is worth it. But i was still with sky for almost 2 years.
So when i am in form five, i was very active in athletics. Always training in the morning and in the evening. At that time also, i coupled with sabah most fastest runner at that time, Rayzam shah, he's from keningau. Yup he's tall, really tall and really fast!!! gyla eyh!!! after that, nah, bored, so i switch to Ivan. Ivan is mix phillipino and irish if i am not mistaken. So ciut!!!!!! hehehe...dulu la~ very tegap, my height, and yea, he's cool, but still din work out. lasted for only a week. Boring~...So after that, this guy from S.M.K tebobon. Dunnoe what he's name sdh. hahaha!!! And during when i am in form five i coupled back with helmi and kennedy my ex-bf's..HAHAHA!!! really funny. But both of them only lasted a month. So SPM that time was coming, i was focusing on my studies. Until i met Ian. God!!!! He's just to perfect!!!! But he's shorter then me. but hell, what the fuck who gives a damn!!! He's school is not that far from mine, you just take the bus and it takes only 5 minutes. So yea, DURING YA, DURING SPM, everyday, every morning, he would just wait for me on the building opposite my school, and i would go to him. EVERY DAY TAU!!!! and each subject that he had finished, he would wait for me outside my school and would wait till i have finished my exam. This goes on for like what, the whole month!!! gyla eyh!!!

So yea, I broke up with him after SPM. sad, sad, sad. but hell, who cares. He would bake me cakes sometimes and give it to me. Sweet~ but what ever. So after SPM i went to KL. Lepas geram, shopping, hehehehe. So i always on9 when i stayed in KL. So one day, i saw this guy viewed me on fs. I was like who the hell are you?? So i viewed he's profile back, i don't know for some reason i have the urge to want to know this guy!! yea, he look cute weyh!!! hehehe, so yea, he message me, asking me why was i wearing the initial M? He asks me whether that is my bf Name, i was like no, its my name, then he ask for my YM so i gave it to him la. So we chat, A very sgt kjap wan, because i was like so boring chatting with him. Teda apa maw dicrita kan. hahaha!!! oe yea, he's name is hafeez. hehehehe..So i went back to KK before christmas, and Kevin my friend, is celebrating christmas so he invited me over at he's christmas function in Tanjung aru ballroom, so i went there la. Anyhow, i met this guy, he's name was kingsley. damn Gorgeous weyh!!!!! hehehee...anyhow, yea, we danced together and my what a good looking and good dancer was he is. Hehehe. So he invited me to go to the rave party during new year, so i agreed to go. And hafeez, we were just like that, ignoring each other, i was actually waiting for him to buzz me everytime we on9. hehehe...but yea, so went to the new year's eve party, and yea, it was a bad one EVER!!!! He got drunk, and i was like taking care of him, he is so damn stupid, tp sangkut jgk b4 rave party tu, we were like bf and gf. hahaha!!! so yea, anyway, after that, went home and yea, have a nice sleep.

So after a week or som baru la hafeez nie, slalu buzz i d YM, cz i rs he lonely this. hahaha!!! So yea, he minta my phone number, so i give it to him la.

So he always called me, ALWAYS KAY!!! and i don't know for some reason, i am really attracted to this guy, and i don't know for what reason!!! i was crazy, so yea, we met each other, infront of my house, He drove he's BMW, and when he went out from he's car to meet me, i was like, okay~ he's okay~ he's wow!!!!! so the next day went out with him, but before i couple with him, there's nother guy who i really menyesal tu kesian at him, Zahid ka dat his name, dunno la forgot ody. So i broke up with him because i really wanted to know this hafeez guy. He 's not that handsome or cute, but there's something about him that made me so attracted to him. hehehehe

So anyway, went out together, and we actually confessed each other as bf and gf on the 26th and january 2007. Yep, that's it...

So on it goes with our realtionship, hehehe...then aku terkena pula PLKN...haih, 3 bulan wasted bikin hitam muka. haih!!!! but it was worth it la. During that time, i missed my biey so much. So after that, i straight away went to UITM kedah because i was offered to go there. So go la.

The MMS sucks!!!!!!

The first person that i get to know is Weena, honey and lilo. Me and weena were Best friends during part one, but i cancelled the BF thing because it was complicated to explain. So i moved on. When i moved on, i notice that, hell, yea, i'm going to show my full appearence to people whether they accept me or not FUCK THEM!!! i am me!!! So what the hell, you got a problem come and tell me straight forward. So i met this one girl, Her name is Suria, But i call her Sue. She was also at the term of, not showing her full personality and appearence because of adik kesygn dier and jgk Best fren dier time tu. hehehehe!!! BARU KO TAW!!!! So yea, Nie BFF dier pula nie, tak sgt suke ngan aku, so mula ar dier bwat plan dier yg tak teratur tu and tak menjadi jgk tu. Is that, She took me away from sue, and convinced me that sue actually backstabbed me, when actually she didint, and it was her, sue's bff time tu the one that backstabbed me. So was really pissed off la when i am in part 2. Did not talk to sue the whole sem until dah nak finla baru la ok balik itu pun, i p jmpa dier and ask her whether or not its true that she backstabbed me. And all truth broke loose and everything and showed the true colours of SARAH YASMIN! what she did to us, and what she did to ruin our names. But one thing for sure, she is sure Fucking afraid of her mother!! Kalau aku report jer kat ibu dier yg selama nie dier slalu gune kan nama aku dan sue untuk cover kan perbuatan dier, just because aku dan sue org ckp kitorg jahat, aku boleh ckp anak awak tu bukan la innocent sgt, nak bukti, come see me and sue. Bnyk bukti kiteorg. But recently, dier mcm diam jer, so..kesimpulan dier, selagi you x kacau hidop kiteorg, selagi tu la kiteorg x kacau. But once you made a FUCKING HUGE mistake to us, You sure gonna get it.

So anyway, yea...Bila everything dah diketahui, baru la kiteorg bermaafan. And masing2 grew up. She support me i support her. We grew to accept and love each other. And yea, i'm in part three right now, and yes, she is my utmost best friend ever. She is really a true friend. And that what made people realize that, you are who you are. Be yourself, that is what important. So what if people hates you, Why do you wanna listen to them? Do they feed you?? do they give you your dignity. Dignity comes from inside you. But once you are dirty in the inside although your pretty on the outside, What's the use of having a dignity, just be a whore la. And setia la pada yg satu. Buta aper nak ikut2 org. sedar la.. umur dah mencecah kematangan tp kalau perangai mcm budak2, buat per!!!! Hidup dlm usia remaja hanya sekali, so make good impression to them. Even tho kaw jahat ker per, just be yourself. Do not hide your real appearance behind a mask, people will eventually notice who you are without you knowing it.

So yea, this is it, yup. pnjg gyler babe~
anyway, till then....taaaaa~