On the bus

i'm in the bus going to KL. Its been quite a while since i went back there. Cheh, padahal baru 2 month. ANYWAY, my bus is a double decker bus. What surprises me is that, this one dude, actually a gay dude, was like " Hye, i'm geneva, ". He was talking with the dude beside him. Ironically and yes, that dude he was talking too was quite cute..hehehe...sorry biey. so i saja la want ot sit beside this gay dude, saja la. And wow, betapa he pandang slack dgn me. At first when we board the bus he was like friendly and all becaused he was like this doub;e faces freak guy. Hahahaha, my just call, so i told him la, he was like laughing it away. And now, the gay guy masi lg beckp with the cute dude. Masa they were still talking i look at them la kejap, lps tuh, the cute guy stared at me, while the gay dude talked to him. The cute dude was like, Save me, and i just laugh at him. Hahahahaa!!! So yea anyway, can't wait to get to KL. Hehehehehe...

Its all about family

Have you encountered those feeling of being left out? being deserted by your close friends? Being not appreciated by them?. Well, truth be told, i don't feel that i really have any real true friends, right now. The current ones are like, " Semua la dia syg ". So before i'm being left out, i'm trying my best to spread my wings further and get to know more new people. They say your REAL TRUE BEST FRIEND comes only once in our life, and i get the feel, yes it does comes once in a lifetime. But for now, i don't think i have searched high and low for that to come yet, but just plenty of experiences to learn from it though. So i just have to be patient for that someone to be by my side supporting me besides my biey.. :D..

Even though i don't have any close true friends for the time being, i have my biey HAFEEZ and my cousin NAZ that will always support me and be my light in my life...awwwwwwwww~ hehe

Besides them i have my mum and dad that is supporting me within their hearts. My sis who is always helping me in stuffs, my brothers and etc. Overall, Family are important.

For those who i have mentioned and read this, you are the most sacred thing that kept me going.

Lemme tell it one by one..

There's my biey, he's name is Hafeez Almudin. He's my boyfriend and my future H.U.S.B.A.N.D. He's my idol and supporter that gives me hope in things i do.

Then there's my cuzzy-wuzzy~ Naz, awwwww~ hehee...She's smaller then me, but she's my inspiration for me to think with a much more wider objectives and circumstances.

Then there's my sister, Whom i called, kakak M.A.R.I.A.N. She's my sis and my brainthinker who thinks all the possibilities that could effect my future. She's good in giving advices.

Then there's my parents, whom i called MO.M.M.Y and D.A.D.D.Y. My mom is my back bone in eveything i do. She raised me up and taught me alot of things. She's my disciplinary and my soft hearted Angel...awwwwww~...hehehe

Then theres my Dad. He's my sole I.D.O.L. He pushes me even though i reached my limit because he knows what is best for me and my future..heeeee... :D

THE REAL ME!!! THIS IS REALLY ME..

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up

This is me.....Face it..

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Mika, mikau , u.,.,

I'm in Epa's room...ada probs. Probs everywhere, di sini, di sana, di saaaaaaaaaaaaana, di siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiini pun ada...heeeeeee~..

Hurm, org2, please get ready for me k. You will see changes that you never seen me done before. huh.!

Then And again

Monday,
12.30 A.M

Dear Blog,

I am writing in my notepad again due to the technical error of the university wireless here in campus. Gawd i'm bored!!

I just came back from camp in Yan yesterday. ' Camp Jati Diri ' . Yep that is what they call it. And oh did i mention that i have turned from blondie to blackie??? oops, yea i did mention'd it in my previous blog, the part where i dyed my hair in the Public toilet. It was hilarious!!!

Oe yea, the camping trip was so bloody awesome. I made few friends for the past two days, and got to know several family backgrounds that had turned bad. And it turn out to be such a valuable leson. The camp was ok, it was bloody hot during the day, and bloody cold during night time. We were all shivering our butts off!! due to the overwhelming cold-ness.

Anyhow, there were lots of activities that we've done, such as, explorace, Jungle trecking, A motivation talk, ' Malam Sufi' and so on. It was bloody fun!! The thing that made the camp more interesting was the friends that i made during those two days of camp. They were so bloody funny!!

Not to mention the experience i get from it!! There were lots of things that made me realize and know my self more. I am overwhelmed by the expectations i get, then again.. not just to me, but also to the other students that attend the camp. If they are making another camp trip, i really hope that they would choose me again!!..

Hehehehe!!

Yours truly,
Deekay!!

Till then,
Stay tuned!!

Hari Yang Paling pelik dlm sejarah hidup ku

Today was the most weirdest thing that has ever occur to me. Let me tell it step-by-step.

Woke Up morning as usual, yawn!!!! I asked bibiey to sign the attendance list for me and sue. So Actually woke up at 11 a.m. After i woke up, i had my morning bath. I had my bath first because sue is also using my towel despite the fact her towel is in the machine wash. So, she had her turn after i bath. I put on my clothes and was getting ready to to class with sue.

It was a tutorial class and it was quite fun. Madam divided the class into two groups and named my group tongga and the other group sifu, based on the Movie 'Sifu and Tongga'.

After class me and sue planned to go out because she has not yet payed her fees. While we were on our way out, the guard stopped us for an inspection. I was wearing my hood up to hide away my blond hair, but luck was not by my side that time and that guard asked me to open my hood. I was like DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMNNNNNNNN!!!! So, he saw my hair and all and he called the captain of the guard. The guard was like, " Please write your name in this discipline record book look". So i was making up stories where yesterday the other guard had given me a warning to dye my hair black. Was really hoping that he would not put my name in that book. And at last, Luck did favour me this time yyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!


So i said to him that i'm actually going out to dye my hair black which was not in the plan made by me and sue. And so, off i went to tesco to buy the dye. Actually i did not bought the dye, it was rather ' Borrowing' to be precise. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! And so on it goes. I was really conscious about what the guard had said, so i took it serious. Because sue had her own problems because of her hair too, so i do not want to take the road she's in.


Was really desperate to dye my hair black. So we had this idea to dye our hair in one of our friends house. So we called her, But she did not picked up. So last-last, The place where i dyed my hair was really exquisite and yes, may i remind you the place i'm talking about is where people always do there ' Buisness'. Hehehe. It was in village mall.


Call me crazy, Yes i am one hell of a crazy matha fucker. Luckily sue bought her shampoo when we were in tesco, and luckily the dye hair thingy had a conditioner, so it was all set in package.


I was like org gila waiting 15 minutes for the dye to go in my hair. So can you imagine how you your self would be if you were waiting for 15 minutes in a cubicle??? Crazy i tell you, very crazy.


So, and yes it took only 10 minutes for my hair to turn black, and luckily i do not have to wait for an hour. I would be dead by then. There were no hairdryer, but simply a hand dryer that was available. So i used it to dry up my hair. I know, What the hell i'm doing!! Two chinese girls were staring at me as if i'm a freak. I was like, screw you dude!!!


And yes, the story here is about telling you that i have gone from blondie to blackie. And the stupid thing i did, that is dying my hair in a public toilet in Village mall. hahahahaha!!!


So, after that, we went back, and i showed the guard my new hair. But he was not in that evening so i just show it to the other guard. She just smiled so i smiled back at her. My name has been crossed out because i did my promise to the guard, that is, dying my hair black again.

Hahahahaha!!! So as you can see, It was one hell of a day and a funny day too. And it is such a memorie to tell my kids in the future of what their mommy had done crazy stuff that is way beyond boundaries, and the experience i get.

So anyway,
Stay tuned!!

Deekay!!

Feelings within me

Okay everyone, my blog for tonight is gonna be a bit harsh, straight forward, and jiwang.

To all that may have said that 2 years relationship is still short and yet i am still young to know and to explore about what commitment in a relationship is. Well, to be precise, you're wrong. Someone told me that every relationship is the same and i am gonna do stuff that the more longer you are in a relationship, the more arguing there is. But she's wrong, she don't understand how my love is. But once if she feels what i felt in my relationship situation she would feel a new kind of relationship that she never had. And apparently, yes she did. Don't ever blurt out saying that your previous relationship is an excuse for my own, because i know how to take care of my relationship and i don't disrespect my bf, and yes eventho we have our ups and downs by mocking each other, but i do not find other people to sooth my heart for a time being.

About my boyfriend. For this past few days, without my hp, i feel kinda weird. Do you really love me or are you taking advantage of me to fulfill your own desires from me?? that is the only thing that always crosses my mind. And i do not know how loyal you are to me, but only god could tell. You are a womanizer and that is the problem that could destroy our relationship.

being faithful is the top most important things to do in a relationship. Without it, don't bother having any relationship to fulfill your own desires and to break a girls heart.