ABOUT ME

I don't be friends with people whom i already hate. Even though they ask for forgiveness or want to do something to correct it. So what, i don't keep grudges because it is so " Oh not me", I don't want to even look at that particular person because what she did is really DEEP. Only people who does that to me will i never be friends again. Seek for forgiveness, what the hell, its not about forgiveness or whatever that is equivalent to it, its how you did something REALLY4 wrong. And there are few person's whom i feel disgusted with. Even though they seek for forgiveness i still, and yea, "whatever" i forgive them, but i still stick with my priorities, is that, never be friends or acknowledge of their existence ever again. So, yea, dendam??? That is so not me, that is a immature act and a childish act to do. Me??? deekay??? whatever~ I am me. When i hate someone, i don't intend to be all mesra to them. Just like i said, don't cari pasal with me. i HATE SOMEONE BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE YOU. So stop all your immature act. okay~..Only i miracle could make me be ok with you. Its not about you changing yourself so that people would like you, its about what you physically did and verbally did. Even though whatever sorry ker aper ker, i forgive ker, i will still don't like you for who you are. Kesian sgt you jadi mcm nie. huh!

For the only person i LOVE

This blog is dedicated to the one and only love of my life. He's name is Hafeez Almudin, he's a year older then me and were both from Likas, kota Kinabalu Sabah. He calls me Ney and i call him biey. We are 7 hours apart from each other right now. And yea, i am missing him so badly. We know each other from friendster. He viewed my profile, so i viewed his. This occur after my SPM on the 16 of December 2006. He sent me a Testimonial and stated that whether my initial "M" where i wore it around my neck, is my name or my boyfriends name. So i replied back saying that it is my name and i asked why? He said that he was curious about the initial M. And so he asked for my YM. So i gave it to him. I onlined, and so did he. However it was only a short chat, because i was bored and there's nothing to talk about. After that, we did not chat for about 1 month, but still, i don't know why i kept on viewing his pictures in his profile and so does he viewed mine too. Apparently, we had a crush onto each other but we just ignored the feeling. So, one day, I onlined, and so does he, he buzz me several times, and i was pissed off because i was listening to some cool music. So i buzz him back acknowledging his call. So, from that part and so on is what brings that story that what made us together now and for all eternity. As our relationship grew, there are our ups and downs, there are times when he looked gloomy and sad He is sad because sometimes i am being to rough on him. And there are times where i did not give him any attention at all. Because i was being so selfish that i wanted more attention from him, i wanted more "manja-ness" from him. He gave me everything that i wanted, but only me. He only wanted some time from me, he wanted to express his feelings towards me, but i just ignored it. Yea, i know, i may be bad, but i am trying so hard to be good to him. But i do not do this thing very often la. Its that just sometimes i wanted to change badly so that he could be happy. Just this afternoon we had a big fight. I made him really sad and say things that i should not say. But as phrases goes through our minds when we are mad just slipped through my mouth. I just wish that he could be there right infront of me and give me a huge slap on the face. Then i know that he really want me for ever. Sometimes i feel bad about him when he is being so nice to me. Because when i think back i always break his heart. Not the kind of "oh i have other boyfriends besides him or i slept with another guy, or i kissed another guy" NO!!!!!! i'm not like that!! I am very faithful when it comes to pure REAL relationship, and i am lucky because i got someone who really cares for me. I love him so much and i never wanna let him go!! Also, there are times when were both are really happy!!! :D...This is when we see each other face to face. I love him so much when i could see his face near mine, when i can feel his warm hands onto my hands. I just love him so much!! Only when we see each other then will we be very lovable. I just can't stand the long distance were having!! i'm very happy if i could see him everyday physically. I love him so dear much when he is not here with me, if i just think about him, my heart is about to explode because he's not right here beside me. I want to hold him, because i sayang him so much. I love him till eternity!! Biey, i know sometimes i could be really a pain in the ass sometimes, but i always loved you, and there's no other guy beside you in my life. I want us to be together forever and i want to have a life and future with you. I love you so much biey, there's no other words could explain how deep is my love for you. Just mere words are not enough to cover up all of my feelings and love towards you. I miss you. Everyday, every second, every moment of my life. I need you badly. I just want you to be beside me for all eternity. I just want my time to be done here in Kedah so that When i am in Shah Alam i could see my biey!!!! yay!!!! i'm so happy that i could see you darling!!! hehehe..

And i am sorry, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY SORRY for anything that i have done to you. It's just that, i did not notice my fault until you point it out to me. By then it was too late for you were heart broken and my apologize was not enough to cover your heart. All that i want you to know is that i loved you so much darling, more the words itself.
...I love you so much darling!!!

Yours truly,
Ney~

Spending the day out in the campus

Yes, you may say that we are crazy to do this stuff before finals. But hey, we've spent alot of time studying until just that one time you feel that your brain is about to explode. Me, sek, a-nor, and panda wani. Sue was not in the picture because she went out with kak epa. So anyway, yup...we actually went to the stadium and played lontar peluru (using a stone)..so yea~ eventually, it is crazy but yea, it was fun..Wanted to put in the video, but there's some minor technical problem, so nevermind la. Anyway, yea, besides that, we went jumping seriously it was so much fun!!! hehehe..this is annur's jump..apparently, yea, she is small and yes, when she jump, its like woah~...haha



Told ya we had so much fun. And not forgetting panda's jump!!! Star jump with sek acting like a mouse in search of a whole. Sek!!! Whole??? Lubang??? hehehe..








Told ya she's a star...and not forgetting mine too!! hehe..




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so yea, practically, we had so much fun!!! hehe...and not to forget, sek..bergila time tu..hehe..
















And yea, we all had a terrific and jolly time. Who would'nt!!! the picture of me and sek sitting and standing on a concrete tube is at the monkey bar section, near to malinja college. Yep, we were out spending some good joyful time!! Hehehe..










cool huh!!!! camera girl, sek!!! hehehehe... But the most memorable picture that will always be remebered is the logo of uitm Kedah,







Due ekor beruk kat blkg tu pun SS gak tgkp gmbr. hahahahahaha!!!!

Kinda sad..

My topic for today is yea...kinda sad. I'm feeling a bit sad because i am trying to ignore my biey due to my final's next week. And yea, kinda sad that i will be leaving UITM kedah in a short moment in time. All the memories that i gain from staying here, will just mere memories of discreet time in my head. Remembering those times makes my tears making its way through my eyes. And the feeling of those memories will make me miss this place even more.

Just two days ago, Where the last day of class occurred in B3 and in TEC13. Kinda sad leaving my lecturers. Though we took lots of pictures. hehehehe..And mdm. Shafinah recorded us on her camera. Must be very touching to watch the video all over again to look at the past. hurmm...feeling a bit emo right now, hehehe.

Well, must move on with our life right, so yea, what is past, let be the pass and leave it as a memorie. So so long. Maybe this is the last blog i would be writing here in UITM mERbok kedah, or i think the second. heheh..

nyway, till then,
stay tuned.

Battling my final sem this year

Its been a year and a half since i have been in UITM merbok kedah. Alot has pass and new once to gain. Old memories to fade and up-coming gonna be new memories.

Alot have changed in me. More understanding on the term of blurrrrrr~ hahaa!! I think i'm crapping. Nyways..i had so much fun here in Kedah. Although i have my ups and down here in Sungai Petani Kedah. But hey, who's to blame??

The first time you step into Kedah, you will ask " hey, what's for entertainment?" And yea...same thing goes to everyone. And, they will usually say this. Penang. Each and every first year students will sakai...everyday go to penang. waste money on the useless trip. And yes, eventually, i have been alot on those useless trips. But if a planed one, yea..its rather enjoyable.

The first thing people would do in penang, is to go to queensbay and gurney. After that, Batu feringghi. After that, Momo, SS, Moist and bla, bla,bla...hahaha!!! And the typical stay in Sri sayang condominium. At a cheap and rather interesting rate.

What i have learn here in Kedah is that, everyones a hypocrite and every where's there's hypocrites. The girls and the guys here in Kedah are all the same. But only a quarter of them that is really nice. The guys are like BULLSHIT and the girls here are like BITCH. What more to say to them when they are in the condition of a culture shock. tsk,tsk,stk. May you all burn in hell someday with all the fucking bullshit you do.

Anyway, please ignore the anesthetic of my language. Yes, back to the issue. And also what i have learn here in kedah is you surely can't stop racial Discrimination. God damn they sure want the may 16 tragedy to happen all over again. ( is it 16 or 13) not quite sure, but yea, i know the story.

The City lights kids are like, fuck i'm not gonna be friends with you kampung kids. Well, lets not forget where you're parents and grandparents are from. Its lucky for you because you don't have to go through the pain they do to make your family rich back on the old days.
And a typical Human being, Bila sdh bnyk duit, lupa dah daratan. Alot happen to malay, chinese and even indian people. But the most humble of all when they have lots of money are the chinese and indian people. I solute them, even more, i love them. To be truthfull, i am not fond of the malay system. I hate the malay system!!! they are so bias. Hey its not the chinese and the indian's fault that the malay's are way back. You got all the advantages of schools, and the words that "melayu diutamakan". But i did not see any hardwork on to anything. kalau ada pun segelintir je. The most i hear to be a lawyer, an engineer, a pilot MOST are the chinese and indian, because they work hard. Because if they don't work hard, they can't survive here because everything is for the malay. But with high grades and high education of learning, yea, they (chinese and indian) can get anything they want. And the same goes to the malay, but there's still a long way to go.

Hurm...Not to sound All bias and all, but i'm not. Chinese and indian's too have their own wrong doings but hey. Who started it first.

I believe my crappiness is out of the topic. So yea...what ever...its my blog and i can do anything am i right. You drop a fucking comment on my page, you'll get a fucking immature permanent title to your Dignity. If you don't have any, you sure are an idiot human.

so, till then..and stay tune..
:)

All the things she do

As time flies by, you realize that you are happy with what you got. As for me, i'm thankful with everything that i have right now. Of course everyone has their own opinion, but still, be thankful and you will get more than what you bargain on what you want.

Anyway, I have made lovers, friends and best friends into my life. Giving permission to them to enter my life. Just three days ago i went to KL to visit my biey. Missed him so much. Here's our picture:





So yea, eventually. HE'S MINE!!!!!!!!!

And also, what lead me to believe in friendship back again is always the term of unbelievably fucking hard. I don't tend to have friends who actually accept me, But Life have thought me alot, and i am willingly accepting the fact that yes, friends that granted my permission to enter my life.

So since then, i have been telling my self that, yep, you can always have lots of friends and real true friends in your life. But do you trust each and everyone of them? So be smart, Don't fall into a trap!!!! When a person could say verbally say that you are his or her bestfriend, i'm telling you, they are just doing that because they just want attention. Changing bestfriends, changing friends. All they want is the advantage they get when they are with you.

So, i have lots of friends, and among these friends that i have, the only person that i trust most is Sue. My one and only bestfriend. Too many bestfriends make relationship of friends more complicated. For example, when you favour you other friend, your other friend will get jealous and thus war broke through. So in the end, you will end up with one bestfriend, but still you will also be surrounded by friends who also cares for you. I DISLIKE DRAMA, so yea, i keep things to the minimum.
Here's the picture of sue, the only person (friend) that i allowed to know everything about my life.


So yea, that's her. (Poyo kan)...hehehe...anyway, the rest of my friends, is also the ones that i trust too. Only them i trust. Kiteorg bosan so ambik gmbr arrr!! hehehe..






So yea, apparently those are the person that is dearest to me. My biey, i lovehims o much, even tho he could sometimes be a very pain in the ass, But i sayang him soooooooooooo much!!!! And i pun can sometimes be a very pain in the ass to him sometimes. hehehehe...so yea apparently we're the same.

Sue, when you guys look at us, you will say that were the bad ass peopz. But when you know us, you will take back on what you say bout us. And the rest, are my good friends EVER!!! (Only in the picture)...haha!!!

So yea anyway, stay tune,
till then!!!

Curiosity

Everybody is always curious. How do i live my life? Who's my friends when i was in sekolah rendah and sekolah menengah? Well to tell you the truth, i'm just plain simple. But not that simple as you think.

Well to start of, I have been introduced to the world on the 22nd of march approximately on the afternoon if i'm not mistaken. Yes, i sedar when i dikeluarkan dari rahim ibuku (whatever!!!).. Anyway, at the age of 3 years old, I've been sent to kindergarten until i was 6 years old. So yea, i spent 3 years in kindergarten. And the schools name was Tunasari, and it exists until now. I do still remember that i was so lazy to go to kindergarten that time and my mom would usually force me to wake up. Hahaha!!! My friends in kindergarten was a bit of a so so. As usual, i went to kindergarten with my cousin. So yea, she's my friend back then. We do had other friends but not as close as us. Yes i know, COUSINS!!! So anyway, when we were about to finish kindergarten, we were given this borang to our parents to state where are we going to school at during our primary year. All of my friends in kindergarten followed my cousin to St. Francis. But i went to S.R.K. ST. AGNES. Yup, there i was, excited to be in primary one. Oe what ever!! Anyway, when i was in primary one, My best friends name was Nurain Nasir. She sat beside me. But the thing is, when i was in primary one, i always cried, i needed my mommy~ yep, the same thing goes to my other cousin that is schooling at the same place as i am. heheheh..Anyway, yea..Oe yea, back to my best friend during that time. I think that she is pissed off at me until now because i did not attended to her birthday party together with our friends who are in the same class. She went to my birthday party, but i did not went to hers, Because i got something going on at that time. So most probably, yea, she's pissed off about that. Then when we were in primary two, she got more friends then me, like she wanted a revenge or something because of what happened during primary one. Seriously when i was in primary one, i was really well-known then her.

so off to primary two. Yea, she got more friends then me just because she was the grandchild of a menteri besar in Sabah at that time. So yea, everyone wanted to be friends with her. In primary two, i was close friends with my cousin again. hahaha!!! we stayed together until we were in primary three. Yep, same class since primary two. We were friends with this twin, Evelin and Evelina. God i still remember their names! Yep, she was all, very how you say, poyo, loves attention from the guys and so on. Where else me, i'm more of a tomboyish and athletic loving girl. Hahaha!! But to make me more the her, i was always top in class, and she would be around almost back of the class. But still i love her, because she's my cousin!!! And when i am in primary 3 is when i started wearing glasses. Seriously, when i wore glasses that time, everyone was like following up what i do back then. Its like i'm the trend setter that time. So yea, what the hell, i was a bit of the highlight there. Oe yea, did i tell you that i was in england during my primary two and three?? and four. Yup!! hahahaha...no lies, but all truth, this is where you will get to know my personality in the end of the story.. :)

So next, i'm in primary four. This is when i am, what do you call it, back together with my ex-best friend in primary one. But we were not as close as we were in primary one. This time, okay i mengaku, she's more front then me. People loves her, anyone will believe what she said because she's Intan Nurain. Well as me, i'm the athletic type of person, where i don't do any geddik stuff. And i am always alone during primary four and five. But yea, i don't care.So primary 5 is the same thing as when i am in primary 4. So on it goes to primary 6. Primary six this time, i am quite brutal. Oe yea, forgot to tell ya, started brutality since primary 3. When i am in Primary six, i was the top athlete in school. And well, yea, everyone knows who DK. is. Primary six is where you take your UPSR right? Yep, still remember, during primary six is where i got to know couples. He's name was kennedy Victor ongkili. Yep, no kidding. When i think back, i was like, " What the hell i was thinking back then?????!!!!!" And during my life, i was actully part of the semenanjung life, because it is considered my second home, i always go to KL every month. Yup..serious...no kidding.

So anyway, it lasted only when we were in primary six. Lama tu, mau dekat 1 tahun la jgk. So anyway, i broke up with him when i'm in secondary school. Before i entered secondary school, i was with this mike guy. He's name was Mike Jermaine Imbayan. Yup.. another one of " OMG!!!!!" But then i broke up with him. And i dump him for this guy, Harizal Lokman. Lasted for one week, then i dump him for he's brother, Helmi lokman. Yup, i know, what the fucking hell am i doing!!!. So on it goes, on what do they call it, puppy love~ hehehe..during at that time, i also coupled with this other guy named chirstopher and i dump him for Zahir. God, don't ask me how i remembered those names..haha!! Well to tell ya, i was a bit huge back when i was in form 1, but not like damn!!! your fat!!! no la, just berisi la. My best friend back then was Roseane. Yup, To tell you the truth, i was really a bad student when i'm in form 1. Doing stuff that was really, how do you call it, samseng. Kaki pukul, kaki escape, kaki melawan and all that stuff. I even almost bakar my teachers car, with a gasoline and a lighter up in my hand infront of her!!! And i did manage to bakar some, but did not bakar the whole car because the other teacher saw what is going on earlier and took the fire extinguisher first. So yea, oe and i did that after school, where all the student balik ody. Yes, from this point of view you will say that i am one of a bad ass student back then. Was almost being sent to hendrigurny , school for really bad ass students. But nah, i din get it, and i only get suspended from school for only three days. Cool huh??..So anyway, on it goes, after dibebel oleh parents ku yg bengang gyler dah, i tried to change. So i did tried step-by-step.
When i was in form two, i was really how to say, a bit quite then in form 1. Yep, Rosanne was kick out from school, because she wanted to proof to peopz that she is more bad ass then me. Idiot, at least when i'm a bad ass, my academic performance was excellent!!! Anyway, yea, back to form two. I got skinny when i'm in form two due to my ulcer in my throat. Yep, and at that time came, my other boyfriend. My bf's when i was in form 1 dah break up dah, this is the newest. So tahan for 6 month jer. I got bored over him and rimas. hahaha!!! jahat gyler, he's name was Dexter Randy. Yep, he was in form 5 and i'm in form 2. cool huh~..hahaha!! anyway, during that year in form 2 is where i don't have any bestfriends because, oe well, i don't want to. They tend to get all competition. Yuck, and as usuall, still the sports woman in all my years in High school. So yea, form 2 was a bit bowrink. Oe yea, and in form two, is where i coupled another guy before dexter, he's name is Burhanuddin (Donny)..Lasted for just urm...One month lebih, itu jak la. Then after him was dexter and after dexter was Rio. He is a form 4 student. Yup. And in form 1,2 still maintain keganasan ku. cheh!!!! So next is when i am in form three. Form three is where i got skinnier then before. I was transferred to a better class, where i was in science class number three. We have six classes all together, 3 science class and 3 commerce class. So yea, At that time, yep, still no best friends. Cause i don't trust a fucking damn thing on them. So i Really kept quite and i observe people. Seriously, i learnt alot about peoples behavior and life. I was like kononnya budak baik la time tu. Cheh padahal, tgk file aku time form 1 huh, baik sgt la konon~..tebal gyla nak mampus!! so, form three is where i started to open up my wings and be friends with a wide variety of people. And yea, that is where you get to know their COLOURS..if you know what i mean. And time tu juga i followed Hand ball. Diakatakan, paling ganas antara semua pemain, was me. Agak la, for 1 year and a half tahan tak pukul org tak bwat things yg extreme, during hand ball match is where i can hit, tendang, peluk sampai sesak nafas dier cz nak bola, hehehehe...smua la dpt dilps geram. But i slalu dpt 2 minute out la. hehehehe!! When i am in form three, i was with this guy named uzair, but it lasted only a day, after bye bye. haha!! So yea, life goes on like that until i'm in form 4.
Form four was a bit different. I took the liberty to chnage my not so myself, to a little bit of my self, because iw anted to see how people will react. Will they see me as someone interesting? fun? boring? or like when i am in form 1? But hell, who cares what people say. Still no bestfriend when i am in form 4 and also in form 5. Just close friends. So yea, form 4 is where i meet this guy, he's name is sky. Actually, i know him since i am in form three. yep. And i coupled with him at the end of form three's year. Yep. Form four, i'm a bit gangster. So i'm being friends with this group, actually my group until NOW!! Iejam, the pendek, Lisa the bikin panas, ae the slumber, ann the whatever bitch and me the don't care person. And the 5 of us, is like, if you gather us all up, you can say that, the four of us, except lisa, is the partay girls, wild girls right now. But but when we were in form 4, study, is the main thing, and also boys. hehehehe..So i coupled with sky and at the same time, i coupled with salawi and donny. But donny went back to Tawau ody so left me, salawi and sky. But at the end of it, no on is worth it. But i was still with sky for almost 2 years.
So when i am in form five, i was very active in athletics. Always training in the morning and in the evening. At that time also, i coupled with sabah most fastest runner at that time, Rayzam shah, he's from keningau. Yup he's tall, really tall and really fast!!! gyla eyh!!! after that, nah, bored, so i switch to Ivan. Ivan is mix phillipino and irish if i am not mistaken. So ciut!!!!!! hehehe...dulu la~ very tegap, my height, and yea, he's cool, but still din work out. lasted for only a week. Boring~...So after that, this guy from S.M.K tebobon. Dunnoe what he's name sdh. hahaha!!! And during when i am in form five i coupled back with helmi and kennedy my ex-bf's..HAHAHA!!! really funny. But both of them only lasted a month. So SPM that time was coming, i was focusing on my studies. Until i met Ian. God!!!! He's just to perfect!!!! But he's shorter then me. but hell, what the fuck who gives a damn!!! He's school is not that far from mine, you just take the bus and it takes only 5 minutes. So yea, DURING YA, DURING SPM, everyday, every morning, he would just wait for me on the building opposite my school, and i would go to him. EVERY DAY TAU!!!! and each subject that he had finished, he would wait for me outside my school and would wait till i have finished my exam. This goes on for like what, the whole month!!! gyla eyh!!!

So yea, I broke up with him after SPM. sad, sad, sad. but hell, who cares. He would bake me cakes sometimes and give it to me. Sweet~ but what ever. So after SPM i went to KL. Lepas geram, shopping, hehehehe. So i always on9 when i stayed in KL. So one day, i saw this guy viewed me on fs. I was like who the hell are you?? So i viewed he's profile back, i don't know for some reason i have the urge to want to know this guy!! yea, he look cute weyh!!! hehehe, so yea, he message me, asking me why was i wearing the initial M? He asks me whether that is my bf Name, i was like no, its my name, then he ask for my YM so i gave it to him la. So we chat, A very sgt kjap wan, because i was like so boring chatting with him. Teda apa maw dicrita kan. hahaha!!! oe yea, he's name is hafeez. hehehehe..So i went back to KK before christmas, and Kevin my friend, is celebrating christmas so he invited me over at he's christmas function in Tanjung aru ballroom, so i went there la. Anyhow, i met this guy, he's name was kingsley. damn Gorgeous weyh!!!!! hehehee...anyhow, yea, we danced together and my what a good looking and good dancer was he is. Hehehe. So he invited me to go to the rave party during new year, so i agreed to go. And hafeez, we were just like that, ignoring each other, i was actually waiting for him to buzz me everytime we on9. hehehe...but yea, so went to the new year's eve party, and yea, it was a bad one EVER!!!! He got drunk, and i was like taking care of him, he is so damn stupid, tp sangkut jgk b4 rave party tu, we were like bf and gf. hahaha!!! so yea, anyway, after that, went home and yea, have a nice sleep.

So after a week or som baru la hafeez nie, slalu buzz i d YM, cz i rs he lonely this. hahaha!!! So yea, he minta my phone number, so i give it to him la.

So he always called me, ALWAYS KAY!!! and i don't know for some reason, i am really attracted to this guy, and i don't know for what reason!!! i was crazy, so yea, we met each other, infront of my house, He drove he's BMW, and when he went out from he's car to meet me, i was like, okay~ he's okay~ he's wow!!!!! so the next day went out with him, but before i couple with him, there's nother guy who i really menyesal tu kesian at him, Zahid ka dat his name, dunno la forgot ody. So i broke up with him because i really wanted to know this hafeez guy. He 's not that handsome or cute, but there's something about him that made me so attracted to him. hehehehe

So anyway, went out together, and we actually confessed each other as bf and gf on the 26th and january 2007. Yep, that's it...

So on it goes with our realtionship, hehehe...then aku terkena pula PLKN...haih, 3 bulan wasted bikin hitam muka. haih!!!! but it was worth it la. During that time, i missed my biey so much. So after that, i straight away went to UITM kedah because i was offered to go there. So go la.

The MMS sucks!!!!!!

The first person that i get to know is Weena, honey and lilo. Me and weena were Best friends during part one, but i cancelled the BF thing because it was complicated to explain. So i moved on. When i moved on, i notice that, hell, yea, i'm going to show my full appearence to people whether they accept me or not FUCK THEM!!! i am me!!! So what the hell, you got a problem come and tell me straight forward. So i met this one girl, Her name is Suria, But i call her Sue. She was also at the term of, not showing her full personality and appearence because of adik kesygn dier and jgk Best fren dier time tu. hehehehe!!! BARU KO TAW!!!! So yea, Nie BFF dier pula nie, tak sgt suke ngan aku, so mula ar dier bwat plan dier yg tak teratur tu and tak menjadi jgk tu. Is that, She took me away from sue, and convinced me that sue actually backstabbed me, when actually she didint, and it was her, sue's bff time tu the one that backstabbed me. So was really pissed off la when i am in part 2. Did not talk to sue the whole sem until dah nak finla baru la ok balik itu pun, i p jmpa dier and ask her whether or not its true that she backstabbed me. And all truth broke loose and everything and showed the true colours of SARAH YASMIN! what she did to us, and what she did to ruin our names. But one thing for sure, she is sure Fucking afraid of her mother!! Kalau aku report jer kat ibu dier yg selama nie dier slalu gune kan nama aku dan sue untuk cover kan perbuatan dier, just because aku dan sue org ckp kitorg jahat, aku boleh ckp anak awak tu bukan la innocent sgt, nak bukti, come see me and sue. Bnyk bukti kiteorg. But recently, dier mcm diam jer, so..kesimpulan dier, selagi you x kacau hidop kiteorg, selagi tu la kiteorg x kacau. But once you made a FUCKING HUGE mistake to us, You sure gonna get it.

So anyway, yea...Bila everything dah diketahui, baru la kiteorg bermaafan. And masing2 grew up. She support me i support her. We grew to accept and love each other. And yea, i'm in part three right now, and yes, she is my utmost best friend ever. She is really a true friend. And that what made people realize that, you are who you are. Be yourself, that is what important. So what if people hates you, Why do you wanna listen to them? Do they feed you?? do they give you your dignity. Dignity comes from inside you. But once you are dirty in the inside although your pretty on the outside, What's the use of having a dignity, just be a whore la. And setia la pada yg satu. Buta aper nak ikut2 org. sedar la.. umur dah mencecah kematangan tp kalau perangai mcm budak2, buat per!!!! Hidup dlm usia remaja hanya sekali, so make good impression to them. Even tho kaw jahat ker per, just be yourself. Do not hide your real appearance behind a mask, people will eventually notice who you are without you knowing it.

So yea, this is it, yup. pnjg gyler babe~
anyway, till then....taaaaa~

A hectic week going on

I'm in my room, as usual, onlining..(not sure if theres a word for it). Was supposed to have my test today, but sadly, it was postponed next week end. I should have slept through it the whole day. In these whole day, i was thinking, should i continue on to take this law course, or should i change? I almost cried because i was stressed out because of law contract. God i am week in that part. But no, i went to bella's and annur's room, we were talking about pursuing our law degree next year in shah alam. I asked them whether UM is also good, but sadly they said, when graduate, firms will usually take UITM students better because we study almost everything in English language. Like UM, they still study almost everything in BM. So yea, i get the idea of the advantage about it. Was thinking to pursue mass-com, they say that, students with pre-degree course will easily get in, but, its really hard to find a job with a graduate mass-com certificate. I almost called my mom, and wanted to cried and tell my mom that i feel so stressed out right now. But now i feel good, back to confident mode..hehehe...tomorrow i got my presentation and my law test. Studied contract just now, i just wish that i was the nest britney Spears to go bold. Yea!!!!! But nah, i love my hair, not that crack pot yet..hehe..So yea,

Stay tune, till then,,
Deekay

Sorry, cause i was not able to put this picture together with my previous blog of pre law diner. Cause i just got this from Sue. Anyhow, here it is..pictures with my friends during pre law dinner. So this is with the girls in my table, And there's only one guy, so kesian..hahaha.. Weeeee!!! love my hair!!! hehee...

Pre Law dinner

Dinner with a big Smile on everyones faces.

Before the dinner starts. I was in my room watching the series of How i met your mother. It was a very funny comedy, till miera knocked on my door. She was asking me whether or not i'm going to do my hair in the afternoon. I was thinking that , may be i will, maybe i don't. Cause i was a bit lazy back then. The hardest part was to wake suria up. God damn she sure can sleep like she's dead. kidding!! Anyway, after watching three whole series of how i met your mother, Went up to sue's room. Just as u thought, she was still sleeping. HAHAHAHA!!!.. before i went on to setting up hair in the saloon, there was this big difference on the before and after hair thingy going on.. hahaha..here's the picture.. Yep...this was how my hair look like before i went to the saloon, normal, straight, spelling ME all over it. hahaha..Anyway so on it goes, Went to the saloon around 3 P.M..it was REALLY hot so i brought my umbrella with me just in case it rains, or....its getting more hotter. Went and take a cab to the saloon. Now this saloon, is my favorite of all time saloon, nope, it is not anywhere in CS..oh my god that place sucks!!! only a few of my friends that know that place, and it is full of pros of hair stylist. So it took only half an hour, to make my hair look like this...



Cool right~ and it only took half an hour to do it!!! They sure are pros. Oh and i made friends with them. Her Name is Grace, from penang, but works in SP. She is so cool..seriously..haha!! Anyway, yea..dinner, made it just in time for the bus...hehehe..a hair like that with a baju kurung, daring, VERY VERY VERY daring..not just me, but sue too. God damn..here's our picture at the dinner..


So there you have it, evidence of all of it.. hehe..eventhough the food was not enough, but still yea, they manage to pull it off. Hehehe..

Till then,, stay tuned everybody..~

2008 raya

Raya this year was the most best thing that has ever happened. Although i got only 2 days too enjoy my raya, but still it was enjoyable but still tiring...hehe.

On the third day of raya, it was time for me to go back to KL, because i have to go back to kedah on the fotrth. So on it goes with the proceeding. When i reached KL on the third, i straight away called my BF sue to hang out with her. So all planed well and so the planning goes on.

At first was suppose to meet her at Old town in kelana jaya, but she was 2 hours late, GOD DAMN2 HOURS LATE!! bontot aku dah nak berkurap dah menunggu ketibaan yang mulia puteri santubong suria Norbahiah BTe Bashri...hahaha!! anyway, luckily she did came, or else i would be really pissed off.

So, met her friends as well, lily and miza. They're coOl, satu kepala jugak. hehehe..So we went to Asia Cafe, just to hang out. It was not a crazy night because some of them was having trouble with their love life, I my self that time was having trouble either but not the serious as to both of them lily and miza.

But the crazy-ness of the night started of when we got lost around subang going to kelana jaya. It was a stupid thing, yea of course because it was night and dark, so each of us has our own weakness that is, fail on sight direction at night. it took us and hour and a half to reach kelana jaya and reached my house too. hahaha...

And so it goes on, luckily i got home safe and sound. The next day my flight was at 3.15 p.m. I'm using firefly to get to kedah. But its a flight transit so i have to go penang and take the bus back to sungai petani. It was damn tiring and i could assure you that i SWEAR that is the first and last for me to take the jeti and the bus to sungai petani!!! It was horrible!!!

Luckily i reached UITM campus safe and sound. I was praying in my heart that i would be safe along the journey. damn~...



Hahaha, anyway, raya was a bit of a rush too..hurm...on the first day of raya went to papar and bongawan. went to my datuk and my long relatives of uncles. The next day went to keningau, on the way to keningau it was damn cold because we were up high at the gunung ( note to people, the gunung has its road for cars okay, its not like were going tracking or what, and the road is like your typical day road for driving). So we were amongst the cloud as the temperature reaches 18 degree's celcius..cool~..and my dad had to open the head lights because you can't even see the road and the cars that was passing by! even the other cars had their lights on. So yea..When we reached keningau, it was like i'm back in my second home, because when i was little, i spent almost half of my life there in keningau until i was primary three. Everytime when puasa occurs, we would spend a month and a half in keningau with my nenek and my cousins. But when God took my nenek away, the happiness for raya after was also taken, and raya is never the same like those old times. So yea, it was kinda depressing, but yea, that is life, gotta except it and bersyukur la on what we have right now rather then nothing at all.

So that's the story, hurmmm...kinda boring right now, cz there's nothing here. So stay tune, till then, taaaa~ =)

I'm going crazy~ almost giving up

Dear blog,

I do not know what he wants from me. I gave him everything, The attention he wants, the love i gave, but still he is not satisfied with everything i gave to him. I do not know what to do. He said that he has trouble sharing me with his problems, okay fine, when i ask him what;s wrong, tell me, he still hesitates to tell me.

Everytime i wanna go out, he would do something that made the situation worsen. But if he were about to go out, i'd d0o nothing to stop him. And he told me the reason is because he is a guy and i'm a girl. WHAT A PATHETIC EXCUSE!!!!